Life has always been a challenge. The way I saw myself, how I felt about life, I never thought was normal. It wasn’t until I started photography as a student that I slowly discovered a way that I could express my issues without having to fully admit them to the outside world.
My first attempt at admitting I was struggling came in the form of black and white photographs of lilies. My classmates thought they were beautiful portraits. It was then that the confidence of knowing my work was received positively, that I decided to detail the hidden meaning behind the photographs. It was nerve wracking but also cathartic. I realized I was able to discuss a painful subject by using photography as my medium.
Art is so expressive. It teaches you to be honest, creative, deep and to accept a form of self expression. I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder, Anxiety and Borderline Personality Disorder. Mental illness carries such a stigma and unfortunately is still only viewed through a clinical environment. It may never be easy. But one thing has continued to help me and that’s art.
The hope that something I’ve created can not only depict an emotional moment in life but perhaps alleviate some internal torture for another person is my constant goal. That’s what made me want to help others, FIN is a way to do that. Showing people how to communicate through art is what keeps me going. I imagine FIN will keep others going as well.
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These initial pages were created in Adobe Illustrator (A.I)
I am affected by my senses as Borderline Personality Disorder makes simple tasks such as hearing, seeing and speaking difficult
It is (just another day)
I hide my struggles and self medicate to survive
Behind Closed Eyes
Emotional Abuse isn't so clear until you escape. The resulting trauma lasts a lifetime.
Suicidal thoughts are constant and sharing my experience will hopefully comfort others struggling as well.
There is no treatment for BPD. The practice of mindfulness (accepting what is) can provide relief.